my depression has caused my to do things that are dangrous like spray paint walls i got some in my lungs not good its like i hate life cause my partents ruin by taking away my music my boom box and possibly my life and im just doing dangouers things cause i don't care and i hate having diabetes kids at school make fun of me its a small school and im the only diabetic being low sucks and kids act like they know everthingg thing about diabets and say like why don't u eat candy or something its i like wtf
can you or anybody else help me
that first paragraph you wrote amy has been the story of my life the past couple months.
i feel like whatever i do, i am going to get complications anyway, so why try controlling it.
i am really starting to feel like absolute *** though.
i hate this.
i am 18, so i still have a whole life to deal with it.
i can't see this getting any easier.
i really want to talk to someone, but i don't think any of my friends would be interested or care and most of the don't know. i can't talk to my parents either cuz i never talk about diabetes with them, i just text my mom what supplies i need.
I feel your pain! i was diagosed at 18, but at 29 had a stressful circumstance in my family, and gained 12lbs in a month. I'm now 50 lbs more than i was back then...anyway. I was told that when you stop making insulin, you also stop making chromium and vanadium. they are essential to how the body works. you may want to google it, but the dr. said something about how the insulin puts the fat in the cells and the chromium takes the fat out. so, obviously without the chromium, the fat sits there.
I'm sorry you're struggling. I have been so depressed lately and know what you're going through. I have a very loving hubby and kiddos, and dogs, but also have a very hard time getting up and feeling motivated and happy!
hang in there! :)
A year before I was diagnosed, I had a major virus! I was out of "service" for 2 weeks! I slept sitting up at night, because I was so sick, I couldn't lay down. When I was diagnosed, they said type 2. After a year of roller coaster blood sugars, I saw a new endo, and he said I was type 1. Talking with a woman whose daughter has type 1 with the same reason that we have (illness), she said that her doctor told her that there may be a gene passed down through a family that isn't "compatable" with a certain illness. So, in other words, if I hadn't gotten that specific virus, I'd still be ok. But, my cells were confused with the virus I had, so they attacked my pancreas. Another suggestion is that the virus began in the pancreas, therefore, the attack on the virus, damaged the pancreas. I don't know why I have it. No one in my family history has type 1. My kids don't have it, aren't at risk. All I know is that, it sucks, it's hard. I have recently been blessed to help a friend, with type 1 who's pregnant for the first time, with her questions. If I hadn't gone through 3 healthy pregnancies, I couldn't help her. ya know? There's a reason for me having diabetes, even if I don't know why.
Peter I am in 7th grade and i feel the same way! I lost my dad at the age of 6 and sience then its been ackward with my mom and I, she never talks bout him I try but nothin..... kids at school make fun of me and my friend we r both type 1 like "go get candy in u" "whats wrong with u do u have issues" some kid asked if i was mental? life doesnt matter to me that much either but I really dont think you should do dangerous things becuz udc I think if u took ur life then u would b an idiot u need to stand up for urself kick @ if u have to whatever it takes to get somebody to relize
Im always here 4 u
Livia :)
i have seen a phyicatricts and a threapists last week it help to relize that i need to stop that the things i do like swear alot and spray paint walls hurt the people around me esspially my famliy my mom has cried alot she says she dosn't know who i am or some stupid stuff
I am gladded that helped
:)
Taking an active approach to dealing with/fighting depression is key I think.
I've found counseling to be very helpful. Being able to tell someone about life and everything that comes with it allows me to think about my problems in a more constructive manner (looking for solutions in particular) and examine them. If I let myself sit around with little to do, I can get pretty bad. Getting plenty of rest also helps in my experience.
One of my roommates suggested writing--not anything in particular, it could be prose, poetry/song, journal entry--as a means of dealing with things. I've found it's a similar experience to counseling, but it acts more as a time to vent and get things out.
That said, I still have difficulties. Being conscious of the problem is the first step.
Leslie it sounds like you need a new doctor. I inject myself 4 times a day and i am actually thinking about switching to the omnipod for better control. I am going through a really stressful time at work and my bloodsugar levels have been all over the place. This of course makes me even more stressed and sad that I am unable to control it like I want to. I am usually pretty good when it comes to my diabetes control but I have been through my ups and downs with it. You need to be your own advocate though and that is what I am trying to do now since I am kind of going through a tough time. I am talking to people and I am talking to my doctor about how to improve.
The insurance thing can be tricky because we all know diabetes even when you have insurance is not cheap. Are you eligible for medicaid? I would definitely look into the pump. I am going to try it out soon and other people I know said it literally changed their lives.
By the way they are not 100% sure how one gets diabetes. Yes you are more prone to it if there is a history of it in your family. Yes there is a theory that you can get it from a virus. It is an autoimmune disease. I have heard what happens is the virus cells look similar to your insulin making cells so your immune system attacks them and kills them because it cannot distuguish between the virus ones and the insulin making ones. It does run in my family although I am the only one with type 1, but I did get very sick with some sort of cold or virus right before I was diagnosed.
Good luck with everything! Don't let the diabetes control you, you can take control of it.
i am also looking for treatment ..most of the time i feel sad and cry for anything at 1st when they diagnosed me i was like whatever i got this but now not so much i feel like im a burden to my family im constantly sick the insulins expensive and idk i cnt help feeling sad the doc doesnt want to put me on anything cause she says im young so im looking for alternatives too