This is how I really feel

I was diagnosed at 17 years old, begining of my senior year. I barely have had it for a year and a half. I just ran out of my own insulin, and currently isn't producing anymore on my own, the "honeymoon phase" is over.

When I was diagnosed, I was sad but thought of it as it's just another bump in the road and a new thing added to my life. It does get hard at times, but I don't let it get in the way of anything. It's scary when people say how much it sucks and gets in the way of their life because I don't feel that way at all. Yeah, it does suck but that's life. I can't cry about it forever. Instead, I control myself as much as possible and deal with it. I really want stem cell to go through so that everyone can be cured. I even asked the chancellor of my university to start the funding for it somehow.

My dad was 12 when he was diagnosed. Although I got it at an older age, I am glad I did. I'm passed pueberty and all those things, so I didn't have to deal with the hormone change or going through weird phases with it. But, I also did get a little depressed. Diabetes is a scary thing. I don't want to be impaired. I don't want the chance of going blind, nerve damage, amputation, etc. I try as much as possible to control it but it's so hard when i'm in college. I have to worry about college, alone, then this on top of it. But, I leave all of my worries to God, and hope someday there will be a cure.

Posted Dec 10 2008, 07:37 PM by Michelle
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Gina wrote re: This is how I really feel
on Wed, Dec 10 2008 11:03 PM

we all hope someday there will be a cure. until then we all have each other to vent to because we all totally understand what we all go through day by day.

Bailey wrote re: This is how I really feel
on Thu, Dec 11 2008 9:36 PM

Hang in there hun. I have been diabetic for seven years and i am ready to break down. But everyday I wake up and remember the things i love and the things that make me smile or make me laugh. Just hang tough, its not easy but remember to look forward to something.

Dylan wrote re: This is how I really feel
on Fri, Dec 12 2008 2:24 AM

I think thats an excellent description of how all of us feel. Thinking about the complications of diabetes can conjure some pretty malignant feelings. Being in university too I know how you feel; no matter what, you won't be able to completely have the traditional experience. That being said though, staying healthy through collage is do-able. Deciding to exercise regularly and finding other healthy stress release mechanisms is a good start. I wont pretend like I've been a model diabetic in collage, first year I definitely drank too much (which, compared to the non diabetic, was actually quite a small amount) and binged a lot on food. I'm sorry if you've already heard all this crap, I just wanted to try and offer a solution to part of the problem.