This is how I really feel

Michelle — Thu, 11 Dec 2008 02:37:00 GMT

I was diagnosed at 17 years old, begining of my senior year. I barely have had it for a year and a half. I just ran out of my own insulin, and currently isn't producing anymore on my own, the "honeymoon phase" is over.

When I was diagnosed, I was sad but thought of it as it's just another bump in the road and a new thing added to my life. It does get hard at times, but I don't let it get in the way of anything. It's scary when people say how much it sucks and gets in the way of their life because I don't feel that way at all. Yeah, it does suck but that's life. I can't cry about it forever. Instead, I control myself as much as possible and deal with it. I really want stem cell to go through so that everyone can be cured. I even asked the chancellor of my university to start the funding for it somehow.

My dad was 12 when he was diagnosed. Although I got it at an older age, I am glad I did. I'm passed pueberty and all those things, so I didn't have to deal with the hormone change or going through weird phases with it. But, I also did get a little depressed. Diabetes is a scary thing. I don't want to be impaired. I don't want the chance of going blind, nerve damage, amputation, etc. I try as much as possible to control it but it's so hard when i'm in college. I have to worry about college, alone, then this on top of it. But, I leave all of my worries to God, and hope someday there will be a cure.

michelle_baum

This is how I really feel